Christmas

ok so christmas this yr was supposed to suck extremely badly especially since my husband and i have been without of work for seven months...i was thinking of canceling christmas!!! i went out wit a friend and she was shopping freely and as soon as i got home i started crying not because i couldnt get anything but because of our financial situation! how is renting going to get paid...how are the bills??? but i prayed and went to sleep...we put up our christmas tree and then i got sad again! because our tree underneath had two fakes presents with lights on them and derwin gift which i bought with money someone else gave me for a xmas present and to pay some bills so i couldnt get myself anything and all i really want for christmas is season seven of smallville or a board game lol and this past friday i was praying and looking at my tree and i was grateful to God for everything we did have like our health, our family, the love between and husband and a wife, friends, my church, and i was praying telling God que me falte todo menos tu! i realized that its not about having gifts under my tree its about having God in my life because the real reason of Christmas is because Jesus was born to bring us salvation so i was happy and satisfied and i felt i didnt have to complain anymore....but God has a funny way of always giving me my desires...i went shopping yesterday with some money my mom gave me and i bought her, my bro, my dad, and derwin a gift even though they are extremely cheap and nothing big at least its a gift and i wanted my family to have something to open up for christmas so im soooooooooo beyond words happy because there are gifts under the tree and my sister in law gave me one and derwin one so thats more gifts so im beyond thankful to God for granting this desire because i dont deserve his mercy and grace but he continues to make me happy even in times of sadness because of that and sooo much more i love my Heavenly Father!!!